searching for answers

What if you were aware things weren't right? What if I told you that three years from now, the person you once loved would have drifted away like a balloon? What would you do? Is it easier to set them free on your own terms, or is it easier to turn around one day and realize the loosely tied balloon broke free from your wrist and sailed into the sky unexpectedly? How long would you stand there and watch it drift away?

What would be worse -- being incapable of love or being unlovable? Could you live a life knowing that you hurt every single person who loved you? Could you survive knowing that all the feelings and emotions you have to offer would never be returned? What if this moment of doubt never passed?

What if I told you that I moved on; that everything we had was a vague memory; that I could barely remember your face? Would you be happy for me? Would you be sad for yourself? Would you still talk to me? What if I didn't love you anymore? Would you hate me?

How would you feel if I said I found someone else? Did you think I would sit and cry forever? Who do you think you are? Why were you so special to me? What if she was better than you? Would you all of a sudden care? Would I all of a sudden care?

What if I couldn't ask these questions? What if I never got any answers? What if I had to sit and just accept everything that happens to me as small events of a greater plan? What if I told you I was really confused? Would you hold my hand?